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My Intention for 43

Tomorrow I turn 43. It does not seem so long ago that I could not imagine even being as old as 20, and here I have more than doubled that.

So far the 40s have been a huge deal for me.

At 40 I learned some humility and to re-evaluate what is really important. We were living in EG and my friends there who were turning 40 had birthday parties on yachts, trips to Europe or other over the top extravagant affairs. The day before I turned 40 my husband lost his job and we were put into an immediate urgent situation of figuring out our future. I spent a lot of that year reflecting on what was important and how to move towards living a life that shows what I feel is important.

41 made me realize that there were changes I wanted to make in my life both inside and outside. I spent the majority of this year driving to the chiropractor trying to fix the fact that my poor body was in a lot of pain and needed some love. I don’t think my spirit was in any better shape. I spent as much time healing and nurturing it.

42 my birthday was spent at Kripalu, which is a wonderful place for me to get in touch with who I am and what I want. My official mantra was “be the change you want to see in the world”. I never mentioned this to anyone, I just tried my best every day to live in a way that I could look myself in the mirror at the end of the day and know that I had been the best “me” that I could be. What I said in public was that 42 was the year I was going to spend in yoga pants – I accomplished that quite well if I do say so myself.

43 starts tomorrow, and while I will still be working on my other past goals. I have a new one I want to introduce for this year. It is both simple and extremely difficult. In my 43rd year I want to learn how to do this pose:

Lord-of-the-Dance-Pose-1-2

http://www.athleta.net/2012/10/31/embrace-natarajasana-dancer-pose/

It’s called Lord of the Dance Pose. First off, I think it’s a beautiful pose, but there are other reasons for me wanting to do this. I have never been overly flexible, but I have spent so much energy these past couple of years healing my body (and my soul) that I’d really like to see where I can go with it. I have been studying Ayurveda since last spring and yoga is the sister science to Ayurveda so they compliment each other very nicely. It makes me feel relaxed and centered, strong and peaceful. I’m still sore and have so much tension stored in my hips. Being able to do this pose will mean that I have worked through all those hip issues, that I can stand tall and strong and grounded.

The Lord of the Dance Pose will allow me to a) free my hips, b) open my heart, c) breathe in balance and d) find my focus. Which I guess kind of makes it a four for one deal.

So, there’s my intention for 43. Lord of the Dance Pose. As a bonus, learning to do it will remind me that I used to be (and will be again) a fiercely strong chick (who can justify another year in yoga pants)!

As a part of learning this pose I have chosen a theme song for the year. I think the song (and movie it comes from) deserves it’s own post at some time, but I chose the song “Let it Go” from the movie Frozen.

“Let It Go”

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the doorThe snow glows white on the mountain tonight,
Not a footprint to be seen.
A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I’m the queen.
The wind is howling like the swirling storm inside.
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried.Don’t let them in, don’t let them see,
Be the good girl you always had to be.
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know.
Well now they know.

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand and here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all.
Up here in the cold thin air I finally can breathe.
I know I left a life behind but I’m too relieved to grieve.

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway

Standing frozen
In the life I’ve chosen.
You won’t find me.
The past is all behind me
Buried in the snow.

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand, and here I’ll stay
Let it go, let it go
The cold never bothered me anyway, yeah, whoa
(Na na, na na, na na na na) [4x]
Let it go
Na, na.
Here I stand.
Let it go, let it go, oh
Let it go.

watch the video:

http://video.disney.com/watch/disney-s-frozen-let-it-go-sequence-performed-by-idina-menzel-4ecd3e729706a16e5090f1de

I hum it to myself while I am holding poses – it’s all about learning to let it go!

One of the very liberating things about realizing that everyone around me knows that I am flawed and that I’m not fooling anyone about that is that it gives me the freedom to be the person that I am supposed to be. Just look at how Elsa changes during her song. It’s easy to see how her coming to that same realization empowers her and changes her into a wonderful and strong woman.

~namaste~

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