Likely because I’ve been working so hard on forgiveness and surrender, I have been given the opportunity to really put them both to the test these last few days. I’m tired – really, really tired – and I know the only way to release the burden is to turn it to God and ask Him to carry it for me.
Sunday when we were at church we sang this hymn:
and I felt it in my soul. I downloaded it on Spotify and I’ve been listening to it non stop ever since.
Today as I felt completely wiped out by the stresses I’m dealing with in my life, I listened to this song over and over – playing it in the background as I went about my daily routine. It brings me peace – when I listen to it I can feel Jesus sitting with me, holding my hand, letting me know it will all be alright. It will be – and this time instead of reacting with rage and anger (which I really, really want to do) I’m going to just keep working on forgiveness, surrender, and strengthening my faith.
Lately I’ve witnessed a really moving example of people responding to malicious cruelty with kindness and compassion, and I have decided that I want to be more that kind of person than the one who responds to it with outrage and a victim mentality. The only thing I can really control is how I respond in this situation, and even that I can only do with God’s help. I realized listening to the hymn that I need to meet Him at the river. Not that I want to, or would like to, but that I honestly need to meet Him, I need help, support, and love that only He can give me.
If happiness comes from within (and I believe it does) then I can choose to stand in my own happiness and love no matter what is thrown at me.
You cannot change other people, only your reaction to them. If they are trying to keep you off balance, sad, or angry, then tuning them out is your weapon.
Carl Sandburg wrote a poem:
Look how you use proud words
When you let proud words go
It is not easy to call them back
They wear long boots, hard boots;
They walk off proud;
They can’t hear you calling-
Look out how you use proud words.
Silence, serenity, a calm center, are your shields.
That is so true – thank you for sharing that with me 😊