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8 months after

It has been 8 months since Mom died. It feels both like forever and that it’s impossible to believe it’s been that long. Seasons have changed, houses have changed, people have changed, I know for a fact that time has marched on. I watched a video the other day not realizing mom was in it – that familiar voice that I haven’t heard in what feels like so long.

It’s all part of life, this death crap, and we need to embrace the love that we received, but also the love that we have right now. Those memories are strong and I hold them dearly – but this moment in time – right now – it’s important. It’s vital we keep walking through the mourning process so that we fully embrace the beauty of the lives we are living right now, in the present moment. I think both mom and dad would like that very much.

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Healing breaths

I understand the concept that while what happened to you may not be your fault,you are totally responsible for healing it. Sometimes though it feels like the healing process goes on and on while the person who caused the pain skips through life with no consequences

Today it was necessary to stop and take a few healing breaths. It feels like sometimes it is the only way to catch enough air and rest to continue on with the journey

Thank goodness we are able to stop and rebalance at times.

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Light that fills your soul

I have been reminded lately how important it is to do small acts of kindness, how much it means when someone goes out of their way to bring sunshine and light to your life. It doesn’t have to be big, earth changing moments – those are nice – but it’s the small ones that add up. When someone looks at your life and sees small holes, gaps that need to be filled, and they know how to put a little bit of light in those dark spaces – it’s amazing the difference that makes.

And that stuff is contagious. The more light that fills my soul the more light I have to shine in the world – and I believe we are all that way. If we absorb gifts of love we radiate the same light back out into the world.

It’s easy to get trapped in the darkness, but it really doesn’t take much light to make that darkness go away.

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Mom’s soup

Yesterday in a box I found the recipe mom gave me when I got married for her Moroccan Chicken soup. Mom didn’t really care much for cooking, but this was one dish she did really well and enjoyed making for us. Tonight I made it for my kids and they enjoyed it as much as my sister and I used to.

I’m so grateful for these hand down recipes – the smell, the taste, brought me back to happy times in my childhood. It hasn’t been 8 months yet since mom died, but as the season is changing and snow was falling today it seemed like it has been so much longer. I’m grateful for the memories we carry with us.

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Sweet like sponge toffee

Tonight for the first time since junior high I was treated to sponge toffee. There was a candy store near my junior high that made the stuff and I enjoyed it in those years but then completely forgot about it.

The stuff tonight was dipped in chocolate which made it that much better.

Life should be sweet like sponge toffee.

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