happiness

Pink

For the last week or so I’ve been on a huge Pink kick. I kind of forgot how much I like her music, but I downloaded a playlist on Spotify and it’s all we’ve been listening to – in the house, in the car, in our heads. I feel like she wrote the soundtrack to my life.

Today as we were driving to Calgary we played Trouble as loudly as the car speakers would let us and garnered some rather curious stares from the other cars as we went down the highway singing and car dancing and laughing.

I swear that woman is the best cure for sadness.

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No people

We had one of those rare days where we didn’t have to people. It seems like we are always needing to go whenever or do something.

And while there’s always plenty to be done, I think it was good for our souls to take this day.

Dad’s birthday is coming up, our first Christmas without mom is coming up. I feel like we are being overpowered by memories – good and sad – and sometimes we need to stop and let them settle.

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Nutcracker movie style

We took the kids to see the Nutcracker movie tonight. I was a little apprehensive, but I ended up loving the movie.

Something else I love is how he wants to do family things. With his kids, with my kids, all together – it’s awesome. Even better that everyone gets along and it’s super easy.

I have a tendency to make life super hard, so I really appreciate when I’m able to relax into something easy that is good for us.

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Montana’s and laughs

We went for a family supper to the new Montana’s in Cochrane. It has been a long time since I enjoyed a meal as much as I did this one.

Our server was amazing. He was funny, good at his job, personable, and made sure our whole evening was full of laughs and good food. John was his name – if you go ask to be seated in his section.

There was also a balloon and magic man who kept kids all the way from my 17 year old to the toddlers at the next table entertained with his shows.

We spent 2 hours there – not because the service was slow, but because we were enjoying ourselves so much. This is how a meal our should be. Laughter, conversation, and good food. I’m feeling very blessed.

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Know when to fold ‘em

After months of training and trying and praying and hoping, I sold my horse today.

There’s a delicate balance of holding on and letting go. The best and kindest thing I can do for this beast I love so dearly is let him go to someone who is a batter fit for him. It’s really sad since he was to be my heart horse – I had planned on him being in my life for the next 20 years.

The reality is I am a different person now than I was a year and a half ago. What I want is different, and what I am willing to accept and tolerate in my life is different. It’s led me to change several important relationships and this is just one of them.

This last year has been filled with loss and this adds to the grief. But there’s something different forming inside me as well. I’m getting more clear on who I am and what I want.

My heart horse will be going to someone who really likes him and is really good with him. It’s better for him, and it will end up being better for me too. We have the next month together before he begins his new adventure.

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