I was offered a chance to ride today – on the same horse that gave me the meltdown earlier this week.
This time I wasn’t filled with anxiety, I didn’t think he was going to flip on me, I wasn’t so insecure I could barely ride. What a difference a few days makes.
I’ve found with all the crap that has happened over the last few years that I’m more afraid of things than I used to be. But I’m also aware that I’m stronger than I ever thought I was. So as long as I just keep swimming, I know I’ll get where I need to go.
Horses have always been the best way for me to work through my emotions and reflect back to me the best and most difficult parts of my life.
Conquering my fears here is helping me gain confidence in other areas of my life as well.