I had a riding lesson today. I’ve been having big breakthroughs, and massive meltdowns as I’ve been going along – last time was a bit of both and today was mostly breakthrough.
I finally told my instructor why I quit riding more than 20 years ago and how some of those fears (or all of those fears) were still there. She changed how we were doing things to enable me to feel more confident and secure, and therefore better able to communicate with my horse.
At the end of the lesson she got very emotional with me and said she knew how hard it was to get back on when I had been scared so badly (both in the past and more recently) and how most people would just give up riding forever.
I said how horses have always been my greatest healer and that we were not just healing my riding fears, but clearing so many of my life blocks as well.
I feel so grateful that I’ve got this instructor who gets me and understands how I need to be both pushed and held to feel safe.
It’s healing every part of my life.