Leg on

Because I never know where life is going to take me, for the last couple of months I’ve been taking dressage lessons. That was always on the bottom of riding disciplines I wanted to learn, and to my surprise I freaking love it.

But I’ve been having a really hard time with leg aids. Or to put it in simple English, i can’t make the damn horse move. It’s been driving nuts that I can’t seem to get my leg to understand how to move in a way that my horse understands. But no matter how hard I worked at it I wasn’t getting results.

Well today, by trying less hard and feeling the process, I was finally to understand how to make the damn go button work. I was so excited. It sounds like such a simple little thing, but it was a difficult thing for me to understand.

Like with most things, once I just surrendered and allowed to feel, I was able to get it.

I’m feeling quite accomplished.


Little miracles

I spent some time today with a friend talking about our intentions for the new year. We both have been so busy in survival mode and putting out fires that neither of us had had the time or energy to properly focus on examining exactly what we do and don’t want in our lives.

When I am in crisis mode it’s almost impossible for me to also be in creative mode.

Crisis mode has now ended (God I hope) and it’s time to really set my mind and heart to what I want to be coming next. I need to be the co-creator of my life.

I’ve had so many little miracles that have guided me to this point. There is no doubt for me who the other co-creator is. And I am well aware that my life would be much easier if I listened better to my divine guidance and actually surrendered. I’m not very good at either. But I sure notice an increase in life miracles when I’m better aligned with my Source


dolce far niente

The sweetness of doing nothing

We are sick today – all of us. Chills, stuffy nose, upset tummy, we’ve got it covered.

And so I spent the day on the couch… watching Mama Mia, Mama Mia here we go again, and lastly Eat, Pray, Love

Mama Mia because the movies make me happy, and who doesn’t love ABBA?

Eat, Pray, Love because it was one of the first books I read on my journey towards discovering my inner light.

When she’s in Italy she discovers the sweetness of doing nothing, or il dolce far niente. Today we put that thought to practice and rested, did nothing, watched tv shows we love, shared space, and actually let go of some of the stress of life.

Hopefully tomorrow brings much better health and we can also enjoy the sweetness of doing – but it was a real treat to just revel in the moment of doing nothing.


Embrace the season

We put up our tree today. I’m still going back and forth between knowing Christmas is my favorite time of the year, and knowing that this year is my first Christmas as ah orphan (just an old one).

The kids make me remember why I want to celebrate Christmas. We all need the reminder of the birth of Christ and the love of family.

And as soon as the kitchen was Christmas decorated we felt the Christmas spirit. It’s all about the love


Murchie’s time

My Christmas gift to myself this year was an order of Murchie’s tea. It’s my favourite for a few reasons – when we were kids mom and dad used to take us to Vancouver Island for most of our vacations and we spent many happy days getting tea at Murchies, books at Munro’s, and chocolate at Rogers. In the last couple of years I have been able to share that tradition with my kids which makes it even more special. In fact, tea has always been a source of comfort in our family. Grandma always taught us that tea was the solution for any emotion. Happy? Have a cup of tea. Sad? Have a cup of tea. Stressed? Have a cup of tea. Visiting with friends? Have a cup of tea… you get the picture.

So tonight I am sitting in Grandma’s kitchen having a cup of Murchie’s tea. And no matter what else is happening around me, life is good because of that.


Buzz off

Years ago the kids and I saw Pinkalicious the musical when we were living in Roanoke. I think the kids were 7 and 11. It was a long time ago.

It was the cheesiest musical, but for some dorky reason we were all really into it, and we still sing one of the songs on a regular basis

Tonight the boy and I looked that song – Buzz Off – on YouTube and laughed until we cried.


It’s a good reminder that the small moments become big memories. We have carried the laughter and fun from that evening for almost 7 years.

Life happens in the small moments