We had some huge news in our family today – the boy got accepted into his program of choice for next year! I still can’t believe he’s old enough to graduate, forget start his adult life – but I’m so proud of him and he’s going to do so well!

He was happy dancing all around the kitchen this afternoon when he got his letter. He really needed this win – we all did. It warmed my heart to hear him say that he now can see all the dreams he’s had for his future coming true.



We kicked off the new year by going to see spider man in cochrane today. The movie wasn’t quite what I expected, but it was cheap day, and it wasn’t bad. It was a good, easy, fun way to spend a couple of hours.

Last year was such a difficult year for us all, I’m looking forward to a fresh start this year. It’s time to bring laughter back to our lives.


Quiet Christmas

I wasn’t sure how I was going to handle Christmas this year – my first one without mom.

Turns out it was a lovely day. Different, sad in some ways, but it was a very meaningful Christmas.

The kids and I spent a lot of time talking about mom and dad, sharing memories- but we also made new ones and really relaxed into the present moment.

And we were surrounded by our tribe which made it all happier and more filled with love. What would we do without our tribe? I am so grateful for these people.

Everyone has their own struggles, the joy and sadness mixed together. But as long as love is the main theme we will all be just fine

And as an addd bonus we are all full of grandmas Christmas sauce


Joy to the world

Family and friends joined together today to say goodbye to my great-aunt. She was an amazing lady who raised a loving family, and was kind of a hub of the community.

For years Christmas and Canada day parties have been held at her place – and they are some of my favourite events of the year. There was always lots of family and food and laughter every time I was at her place.

It was hard watching people I love grieve the loss of their mother, made me realize how much of my own grieving I have yet to do. But also it was beautiful to be a part of this ritual. Seeing family and friends come together and support and love each other – that’s what it’s all about.

Instead of regular hymns, we sang a couple of Christmas carols as it was a more fitting tribute to my aunt who loved Christmas.


Grinch houses

We did our annual gingerbread house building tonight. I’ve learned that I have gingerbread control issues and I need my own house.

I’m not good at it, in fact it looks like a drunk toddler did my house, but I seem to need to tell the kids how to do theirs. So now I get my own

This year though, after my house falling apart 3 times and much swearing, the girl booted me out of my seat so she could fix things.

They may not be pretty, but we laughed so hard. It’s a great tradition. We need the laughs, it’s hard accepting mom isn’t here this year.


Leg on

Because I never know where life is going to take me, for the last couple of months I’ve been taking dressage lessons. That was always on the bottom of riding disciplines I wanted to learn, and to my surprise I freaking love it.

But I’ve been having a really hard time with leg aids. Or to put it in simple English, i can’t make the damn horse move. It’s been driving nuts that I can’t seem to get my leg to understand how to move in a way that my horse understands. But no matter how hard I worked at it I wasn’t getting results.

Well today, by trying less hard and feeling the process, I was finally to understand how to make the damn go button work. I was so excited. It sounds like such a simple little thing, but it was a difficult thing for me to understand.

Like with most things, once I just surrendered and allowed to feel, I was able to get it.

I’m feeling quite accomplished.