happiness

The power of friends

I spent some time today reconnecting with some girlfriends. We all get busy and have responsibilities and other priorities, but there’s nothing like good friends to make a soul smile.

I’m continuously grateful that we are home and I have my lifelong tribe around me again. It was good for me to learn how to make friends during our gypsy years, but man am I happy we are back where we belong.

Sometimes we need people to help hold us up, sometimes we need to be the ones doing that for others. But however it’s going, we need people we can count on in our lives.

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Chair wars

The boy and I had some personal wellness time today as we tried out chairs at our Staples. We actually did need a chair, but the staff there were very understanding with our untraditional method of testing chairs.

I actually want to get one of the chairs but I’ll wait for it to go on sale.

Today is my dad’s birthday and I was feeling kind of sad and missing him. This was the perfect distraction and we both really needed the laughs.

That kid cracks me up.

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No people

We had one of those rare days where we didn’t have to people. It seems like we are always needing to go whenever or do something.

And while there’s always plenty to be done, I think it was good for our souls to take this day.

Dad’s birthday is coming up, our first Christmas without mom is coming up. I feel like we are being overpowered by memories – good and sad – and sometimes we need to stop and let them settle.

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4H weigh day

It was weigh day at our 4H club this morning. I love our club – it’s small but the families are awesome and I’m grateful to be part of it

We finished off the day seeing the Grinch movie. I love the story – love can conquer all. It really is the most important thing in the world. We choose either fear or love every second of every day.

Fear still gets in there a lot, but love is winning. I can feel it.

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Nutcracker movie style

We took the kids to see the Nutcracker movie tonight. I was a little apprehensive, but I ended up loving the movie.

Something else I love is how he wants to do family things. With his kids, with my kids, all together – it’s awesome. Even better that everyone gets along and it’s super easy.

I have a tendency to make life super hard, so I really appreciate when I’m able to relax into something easy that is good for us.

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Know when to fold ‘em

After months of training and trying and praying and hoping, I sold my horse today.

There’s a delicate balance of holding on and letting go. The best and kindest thing I can do for this beast I love so dearly is let him go to someone who is a batter fit for him. It’s really sad since he was to be my heart horse – I had planned on him being in my life for the next 20 years.

The reality is I am a different person now than I was a year and a half ago. What I want is different, and what I am willing to accept and tolerate in my life is different. It’s led me to change several important relationships and this is just one of them.

This last year has been filled with loss and this adds to the grief. But there’s something different forming inside me as well. I’m getting more clear on who I am and what I want.

My heart horse will be going to someone who really likes him and is really good with him. It’s better for him, and it will end up being better for me too. We have the next month together before he begins his new adventure.

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