I realized this morning how run down I was feeling. I haven’t been sleeping well and I’ve been under a lot of stress and that is always a recipe for disaster
I stopped things today and did a reset of my intentions. If I don’t look after myself, everything else falls apart.
I celebrated a day of quiet self care at home this evening with the boy – we watched some belly laughing shows. Happiness.
The highlight of my day was trudging out through the snow to see my miracle horse and get some hugs.
We are still bonding but more and more he’s showing affection. Today as he was having his vitamins and apple he reached out and gave me a big head hug.
Oh I love him. That was a good happiness moment
I had a girls night with a soul sister tonight. We went and saw Bad Moms with a theatre full of other bad moms who needed an evening of laughter.
It was so funny. I feel like I’ve had an ass dragging time lately and to just sit and laugh at stupid things for an hour and a half was exactly what I needed.
I left feeling lighter, happier, and so grateful for my girlfriends.
Happiness ❤️
This morning I was walking through the hospital trying to both look and not look at the people I was passing by. So many people are upset, scared, sad and I never want to infringe on an emotional moment – but I don’t like to walk looking at the ground either.
As I was walking past one lady we made eye contact and she flashed the kindest smile, it lit up her whole face like a sunbeam was shining out of her. It’s amazing how good it felt to be on the receiving end of that kind smile – it cheered me up and left me smiling at the next person I passed. Pay it forward happiness style.
The kids decided to take full advantage of the dumping of snow we got. As soon as they were home from school they grabbed their cousin and bundled up to go out tobogganing.
In my opinion this is the best part of winter.
These screams and howls of laughter were sheer happiness.
I ended up having some unexpected one on one time with my girl today and we went out for a hot chocolate and the biggest cinnamon bun in the world. Life gets busy and it’s important to take these small moments and enjoy them.
Both of us ended up needing our energy rebalanced today. I spent some time with the amazing Asrael who always helps me get myself grounded and find my strength. The girl found hers in a different way, but we both were a little tired and needing some TLC time. I’m so grateful we were able to take that time together and just be.
She hooked into the free internet and watched Netflix and I read my book. And our time together was a happiness moment.
The key to a good life is not giving a fuck about more; it’s giving a fuck about less, giving a fuck about only what is true and immediate and important.
I was waiting at the cast clinic beside a lady when she suddenly noticed her son was being wheeled to a different area. She jumped up and chased the nurse down to ask where he was going.
She came back to get her things and shook her head and muttered I didn’t give birth to him just to lose him now.
And I replied I know and it’s a lot of work to make another one.
And we looked at each other and shook our heads and at the same times said and God, I never want to do that again.
I love random funny moments and this was a good one.
As a bonus I got to see my shoulder and I’m all healed and although it’s not anywhere close to where it needs to be, I have more mobility in my arm. Slowly but surely I’m mending and I’ll be as good as new soon. And that’s happiness
My energy and emotions are sacred to me – I read this today and realized that more often than not I don’t consider them sacred at all. Often I let people or situations drain me of my energy and I waste emotions on things and behaviours I can’t change. But my energy and my emotions should be sacred, should be valued, should be respected. Instead of worrying about how other people will feel about that, I need to worry more about why I’m so tired because I let myself get drained. I love it.
Tonight I took the kids out to Chicken on the Way which, although a brutally unhealthy meal, brought back memories of my teen years and stopping for Chicken on the Way on the way home after a night out. We sat and ate in the car which we never do, and laughed and picked at our chicken and really enjoyed ourselves. Rule breaking -sometimes it needs to be done. It was a good use of my sacred energy and emotions. It was happiness.
I had a case of the blahs today – just too much going on. I decided to go to town and get some errands done – things I’d been putting off for too long.
I was delighted by a surprise run in with a soul sister at Winners. We were both struggling today and our impromptu visit and shopping time together did a lot to boost my spirits. A little ray of sunshine – happiness.
I know for sure I can’t do this without my tribe. Thank God for them.
